absolutely screwed up!!!

one week has past...school started~it's already the 9th but yet i have done nothing conducive to my studies and also my well being...really really bad~all day long been lazing around...sleeping real late waking in the mid-afternoon...whole day at home but never one touch my tutorials or notes...damn what the hell is happening?!it seems as though my studying spirit has die off since sec 4 o's...guess tt was the last time i really put in effort studying~really f**ked up!!!ahhh!!!

ever since the o's...it just seems as if i can never concentrate on studying hard again...i try to find pleasure in it but sometimes it seems so tough...perhaps i'm not trying hard enough~sighs!so freaking lazy!!!really need a wake-up call bleahh!

however i feel much happier when i work...it's crazy~!!!i dunno if i should take delight in this or not...my mum always say study first u can work all u want when u graduate...no need to be afraid tt u dun have time to work~definitely true

i feel trapped in this society...like i can't breathe~i hate studying!i only love maths...ahhhh!even so i didn't perform well for maths last sem...damn!!!so angry!just so demoralising...but yes i know i deserve it coz i haven't put in effort in it...it really sucks!tell me what am i gonna do...what am i gonna do?what am i gonna do?!

well after much whining...let's get back to studying~after all what else can youngsters in our generation do?!bury urself with piles and piles of notes and assessments...suffocate and breathe ur last~hopefully a miracle happens and pull u out of the heap alive...most of the time tt happens~there might be other side effects though...just look at the number of ppl breaking down everywhere...just be careful yea?dun turn into one of those...