Both sides now

WARNING! This is a depressed post. Do not read if you're not feeling good already. The author will not be held responsible for the consequences.

I feel like a total wreck. Lately, I have been busy with my new house. The setting up of the place is taking the toil out of me. It's not helping that I have an assignment coming up. Yes, blame myself for being such a procrastinator. Been sleeping 8 hours everyday but still feel so lethargic. To make things worse, the mornings are getting colder as autumn slips into place. It just makes me feel even more depressed each day.

To be so far away from home, from all the warmth that my friends and family can give me just make me feel even sadder. I wish I can fly back now immediately to immerse myself in the sunny island. who says hot weather is not a good thing? [Disclaimer: This may be a spur of anxiety at the moment. I may end up contradicting myself at the end of 10 months]

I am missing so many things at this moment.. My beloved family, my precious friends, the familiarity which Singapore gives me.. I miss you, him, her, them, us.. it's a bad feeling to be missing so many things.

To end off.. I'm gonna leave you with the lyrics of a song. Very depressing song. So if you want to feel sad.. go listen! [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqQlfFuQFXo]
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Both sides now

Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I’ve looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its cloud illusions I recall
I really don’t know clouds at all

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
I’ve looked at love that way

But now its just another show
You leave em laughing when you go
And if you care, don’t let them know
Don’t give yourself away

I’ve looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
Its loves illusions I recall
I really don’t know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I’ve looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I’ve changed
Well some things lost, but some things gained
In living every day

I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
Its life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all
I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all

What's becoming..

Sorry for the hiatus. It's been long my friends since I last update. I am good and so is Melbourne. However, after being here for the past 2 months or so, it makes me realise how things can change in a snap. 

First, the unpredictable moodswings of the weather. One moment the sun is shining brightly, the next there is a cyclone warning over the radio and the news on tv shows trees being uprooted and building collapsing. All this while, I was in the lovely Royal Arcade, sipping hot chocolate with dear Kaisi who had a one-day stopover. My housemate alerted me the very moment he saw the broadcast. Made us so scared as it was our first time experiencing the temperament of the weather. Above our heads, we could see the rain smashing hard upon the glass panels. For a moment, we were glad we had each other for company. We decided to wait out and guess what? An hour later, we're walking down the peaceful streets which makes all the drama before uncalled for. Overnight, the morning came with a chilly dip of 4 degrees. Isn't the weather crazy? Today, the sun was up and shining brightly just before noon. 

With the good weather came along good news. I am officially no longer HOME-less! It's great news at such desperate times. Pretty like the 'new' house (pun intended - it's an old vintage house) but it's roomy so all is good. Going to Ikea to do some furniture shopping. I have decided to go for a purity theme which means white white white! We'll see how things go along the way.

Have been thinking deep these days. Am beginning to worry when the year comes to an end. Where will I be then? What will I be doing? Who will I become? How will things be like? So many thoughts running through my mind. But yet, no answers. Presently, am lost in translation.

I miss Singapore.. especially my friends. Am worried for a particular one & certainly hope things will turn out for the better. My band of brothers, each one of you, hope school will be fine for you as uni life approach  a closure. To my other friends which I fail to mention, you're not forgotten for you're in my heart. Hope people are treating you nice and fair and hope you will be happy. Hope work is not taking the toil out of you.

On a side note, won't you agree with me that regardless how hectic a schedule is, a simple message makes your day? At least that's the case for me. It's just that simple.