faith restored!

was just chatting with a friend...u know who u are hee!talking about the aspects of having relationships before marriage...falling in love at least once before settling down into one final long lasting one hopefully...

suddenly remember there are so many things to be excited about falling in love haha!just think about it as u read this...let ur thoughts linger in memory lane and relinguish the zsa zsa zsu feeling all over again haha!

the 1st time u went out with him/her...

the 1st time u held hands...

the 1st time u hugged him/her...

the 1st time u feel his/her hands on ur face...

the 1st time u had a peck on the cheek...

the 1st time ur lips touches his/her...

the 1st time u have a passionate,hot,wet kiss...

the 1st time u gave him/her smth nice...

the 1st time u visit his/her house...

the 1st time u cradle up in his/her arms and fall asleep...

the 1st time u make love...

the 1st time u stay overnight be it outside or at home...

the 1st time u guys walked in the rain...

the 1st time u whipped up a meal for him/her...

the 1st time u quarrel...

the 1st time u cry over him/her...

the 1st time u say sorry...

there's like so many 1st time as long as u can find the reason to make it special...hee!remember that calmmy,cold,tight grip tt he gives u...sometimes maybe even wet,sweaty palms haha!the feel of the callouses on his hands...or the softness of her hands if u are a guy hee!a big hug which pulls both of u close to each other...and u can feel his/her heart beating against u...u can hear his/her breathing and feel the warm air coming out of him/her tickling down ur neck...the touch of his soft lips against urs...and so many so many more~haaa...all of which sends a tinger down ur spine lol!makes ur stomach churn like some extremely acidic chemicals fell into it and burn like never before...makes u wanna smile whenever u think about regardless it was a good breakup or a bad one...

i guess it's all these things that makes one wanna fall in love...those who are singleton like urs truly...might wanna consider the thought of getting into a relationship...falling into one and hopefully not fall out of it...but if u do, it's when u learn to know what u really want...so be brave and daring...falters and pick urself up...coz there's always these reasons for u to fall in love all over again...hee!

does it mean anything at all

been rather pessimistic these few days...may it be stress from studying or the silly weather or just the bad head start of the week or the things that have been happening lately...i dunno~there's just this sadness that i feel which is overwhelming bleahh!so yucky...

i was reading a blog earlier on...the blogger is just so skeptical about relationships...she mentioned smth like "seen enough...heard enough..." and this phrase just keeps appearing in my head..i would say different ppl went through a hella diff things in life...for me i am lucky to have a happy family...no major discrepancy,unfaithfulness,disloyalty among my parents and the other married couples like my uncles and aunties...seems as if everyone is happily living together under one roof other than some minor problems here and there...

however not everyone is as lucky as i am...others are exposed to so much more whereas here i am sheltered in my own safe haven...so from them i hear about infidelity, extramarital relations, cheating, adultery, promiscuity and so on...i gasped with the intensity of how these affairs go and the consequences that results from tt...i can't believe my ears...

i always thought marriage is for a life time...trust,honesty,credulity comes naturally with the vows exchanged...tangibly divorce rates are on the rise,lawyers handling divorce cases earning big bucks,what else is there left to show that there is love forever?and what use are the marriage vows for?!since ppl bond under tt can break it anyway...

it might be a huge stereotyping here...but many ppl are certainly doing that...guess now it voice down to the ppl involve in it...are ppl taking things more easily these days?!or more like taking things for granted...taking love for granted...?or perhaps just more vocal...

in the past...our grandparents' era or some of our parents...they have to go through matchmaking...but they manage to survive throught the treacherous road of living together,setting a family up and compromising to each other differences in order to hold everything together...

now we are spoilt for choices...we exercise human rights...u get to choose...maybe tt's where the problem comes in...too many to choose from...no idea which one to select...they grow oblivion of the simple things in life and end up pursuing the impossible...one ought to remember there are little things in life that mean so much more...

it might just the sun rising again and spreading it warmth on earth...it might be the birds chirping in the early morn...it might be just tt the earth is spinning for another day...it might be the fact tt u are alive for another day on earth...no one knows what's gonna happen next...so treasure everything u have...be grateful,be happy for u are standing and breathing in the air of that very day...

i'm bored

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's" Your Love Style?

will a guy know these..when a girl does that..

just thought this is really meaningful...it has been around for quite some time but yup good things last forever...enjoy~

When a GIRL is quiet, Millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing, She is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions, She is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a few seconds, She is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you, She is wondering why you are lying. When a GIRL lays on your chest, She is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL calls you everyday, She is seeking for your attention.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday, She wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL SMS's u everyday, She wants you to reply at least once.
When a GIRL says I love you, She means it.
When a GIRL says that she can't live without you, She has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a GIRL says "i miss you", No one in this world can miss you more than that

~Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy~

this is just so not my week *hmpf*

sunday nite...i came back to hall...suffering from severe cold and headache...tried sleeping but end up waking up an hour later...stayed awake for the rest of the night till like 5am before turning in again....

monday nite...i went jogging with bernice...happily cooling down till i found out i lost my room key due to this stupid hole in my pocket tt i didn' t know...had to walk all the way to the main school area to get the keys and all...we went jogging at 11 reach back at almost 1...poor bernice have to suffer along with me...sorry my dear~ =(

tues nite...ie today...i thought for one nite i can have a break from all the mishappenings...went jogging came back then was feeling the clothes see if it's dry...coz we rush out for lab today then didn't bring it then it rained...so there the clothes was...until i realise 'eh how come these pegs have got no clothes on...?' then i realise my undies got stolen yet again...this time round, another bra and 2 undies...tell me which psycho idiot will do all these stupid thing!!!ahhh!so mad!!!and apparently it wasn't there when we got back from lab already...i didn't even notice it!!!so angry~!bleahh!!!

i hate ntu!hate the stupid person who stole my undies!*poke u in the eye* i curse and swear tt u will get rashes all over ur body and scratch till ur skin bleeds...grrrrr! *screams*

fairy tale no longer

as one step into the advanced and fast-paced society, one learns how to adapt to changes quickly and in the process picks up bad habits like scheming,back-stabbing,cheating,lying etc. can u imagine what happens when the entire globe starts plotting against each other?! perhaps by then the only survivors that will be left are those long neck tribal ppl...lol!

the main point isn't about tt...let's take a look at the relationships among ppl nowadays~ be it friendship,kinship,marriages,parenthood,courtship and so on. it has more or less evolve in a way. love at first sight no longer. now it's more of lust at first sight. i once saw on tv tt men can never talk about the partner he's going after without picturing her naked body.whereas women are still the same emotional and passionate fellows who can talk to her friends about the sweet guy who brought her flowers and held the door for her to enter first. the thing is have it been a recent issue or was it all along this way? i won't be surprised if it has been a problem from all the way back haha!

being a child, it is a time when you are sheltered from all the ugly facts out there. fairy tales and cartoons were the only source of exposure. or perhaps the prince charming was thinking 'woo how will the sex be with cinderella?' but being a children story writer, he shrugs the idea away and stuck to the innocent version...well who knows?

gradually as one grows, into elementary and high school they entered, this is when they experience the first taste of heart aches. there was no fairy tale's happily ever after endings. they cut their tender heart on the blade of love. some recovers while some continue bleeding for as long as they can remember. whatever the case, it left a scar that will never go away.

with that, they enter college and varsities. here it's where they are bare to more spices in life. one night stands and flings are just some everyday topic that a group of friends will discuss over lunch or during physical education lesson for example. maybe not so much locally but in western countries where ppl are more open about it. whatever the situation it have indefinitely become part of life.

slowly trust becomes a rare commodity in the market. a vicious cycle starts. why has things become this way?! is it external or internal? is it because of oversensitivity in each one that all this arises? what have become of the righteousness,sinlessness,stainlessness in everyone when they were a child? where did they all go to?

everyone grew up with the fairy tale...a princess in distress, a knight in shining armour comes to her rescue...

be it a hoax right from the start, i need my knight to restore my faith in love. tell me there is smth called happily-ever-after that truly belongs to the one and only you.

i'll be waiting...always waiting

head-ache...

ahhh now back in hall..it's a monday~my head is aching...nose blocked...i'm not feeling good...it sucks!

while i was packing my stuff just now for hall, i realise there's so much more to study...eeks!so very dead...so stressed~...boooo!

i need to get away from all these...can i be gone with the wind?!

and so i wish...

a lil tribute

i so wanna blog...no inspiration on whatever so to blog though...sheila's leaving for japan in like an hour's time?!bon voyage...my dearest dance instructress~so gonna miss u much!*hugs*haha okie not like she will see...bleahh!

those dance days...filled with joy and tears,happiness and sorrows,achievements and disappointments...it was all in all the greatest part of going to jc lol!i remember...most dance members are capable of not attending classes in the morning but never fail to turn up for dance lesson later in the afternoon...it's such a dancer thing to do lol!the teachers back then must have hated the dancers lots...thinking tt we are a bunch of bimbotic slackers who never really know what we want...but who cares bleahh!haha!i would say our batch did well...most of us are at least somewhere and know where we are going...tt's a good thing hee!

i miss them all so so much...the every little single thing we did now only lingers in the back of my mind...really wish tt we can have an alumni set up or smth...yes yes i'm doing all the talking and no work...sighs~all the performances we put up...from the lunchtime teaching dancesteps to others to the teacher's day concert to the major competitions like SYF and danceworks...we did good haha!of course we did...it's VIBEZ~lol!okie enough of all the praising hee...

sometimes i wonder to myself...what would life be without dancing?!hmmm i'm not tt much a dancerholic...(unlike glady,lixin and maybelle the dptc girls~congrats for making through!u girls have done urself proud~) i dun eat,live,breathe,sleep dance...though i wish i could...think my genes are just not tt suitable for dancing haha!i still do enjoys it...i think jc will be so bored if i'm not in the dance team...sr dance team~i'm proud of u!*muahs*

anyway i'm losing my train of thoughts...dunno what i'm typing...if sheila reads this,most prob she will say...go do it and not talk about it haha!awww so gonna miss her...not like i dun now...her chicken wings and row ur boat classics...lol~ahhhhh i'm going crazy =(

what to do what to do...i'm bored...my blabbering should stop...

here's a song tt's really nice...bernice intro me...and i can't take my mind off it

The Blower's Daughter-Damien Rice

And so it is

Just like you said it would be

Life goes easy on me

Most of the time

And so it is

The shorter story

No love, no glory

No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you

I can't take my eyes off you

I can't take my eyes off of you

I can't take my eyes off you

I can't take my eyes off you

I can't take my eyes...

And so it is

Just like you said it should be

We'll both forget the breeze

Most of the time

And so it is

The colder water

The blower's daughter

The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you

I can't take my eyes off you

I can't take my eyes off of you

I can't take my eyes off you

I can't take my eyes off you

I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?

Did I say that I want to

Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you

I can't take my mind off you

I can't take my mind off of you

I can't take my mind off you

I can't take my mind off you

I can't take my mind...

My mind...my mind...

'Til I find somebody new

P.S:ber if u reading this...look at the last sentence...so dieow haha!

hole in pocket

yesterday went to the IT fair at suntec...and i finally got my digicam weeeeeeee!my new baby olympus irobe IR-500,so pretty i tell u~...it's like love at first sight hehe!i saw it on the newspaper like a few days before...the price was reasonable,the brand was good,the design is sleek and cool and it's white hee!i love it absolutely!haha!

but now there's a huge hole in my pocket...sighs!it cost me 629...the camera alone is 599 then i top up 30 for a 256mb xd card...bleahh!i'm so broke now eeeks!anyone wanna help me stitch up my pocket?haha!tt was not my only damage...i went to collect my new specs too...tt's another 100 bucks~but really love it hahaa!it has got red frames...very gawky lol!py says it's rather arty farty...well now i can be a 100% geek lol!i feel nerd too!now can go around mugging yeah!i'm in the mood...or more like i didn't have much choices haha!

all in all,total damage done = 729...excluding food,drinks,transport booo!i need to be more thrifty now...sighs!no more spending...no shopping...no taking of cab anyway...no whatever that needs lotsa spending...i'm going on a diet!minimum food...just gonna munch on white bread and water...lol!i'm kidding...i will just die haha!

if u dun hear from me again,perhaps the above really did happen...

everything is down

ahhhhh!everything is spoiled!!!bleahh!my room's fan still not working...the repairman came on monday then he said have to come back again to service...but today's wednesday still never come boo!not only the fan...my doodle board too grrr!msn too...stupid internet~so laggy!dunno what's wrong...!!!ahhh!driving me mad!bleahh!i wanna be down too...lemme malfunctioned too~ *sobs*

nice monday morning...

woke up darn early...coz have to accompany dad to visit his mum at the hospital...she had an eye surgery...actually not really have to but i volunteer coz tt day when we were out eating,she was there grumbling "tt dunno-which great-aunt have like 3 daugthers to accompany her when she went for an operation...i only have 2...blah blah blah" then i was like "okie okie dun worry u will also have 3 k...i will go with u..." only then she was happy hehe!

sometimes elderly really like small baby...hehe!just now when she came out of the operation theatre...she so excited keep talking and talking...lol~say the nurse dun wanna push her out of the room even when the surgery was done...then inside there so cold and she wants to use the toilet...lalalalaala~she went on and on and also urge us to bring her home...then the nurse came along and told her to rest...dun talk to her too much haha!so cute la...lol

then dad have to rush off to his worksite...so we couldn't send her home~but she have 3rd aunt with her so should be okie...on the way there, we went for breakfast,apparently dad have some time still...so we went to eat kway chap in some market at queenstown...it was really nice i feel hee!it has been a long time since we done tt...i remember when we were young, daddy always bring us for breakfast...the half boiled egg and kaya toast awwww~so simple but yet so fulfilling...ahhh i'm feeling so contented now hahaa!so heartwarming hee!

after breakfast dad drop me off at queenstown mrt...i took a train back to boon lay and on my way to school...i did a lil shopping hahaha!damn shiok!not like i bought a lot...just 2 tops hee!quite eventful yea?!hahaaha!what else can a girl ask for? *awwww*

but but but...there's a power shortage at my hall now...so dieow!the spoiler of everything...sighs!but nonetheless i'm glad with the way things are...i'm satisfied~hee!anyway i have to start studying...exams in less than 40 days!!!!scary!i need to study...all the lazy bugs please leave me go go shoooo!!!!

chapter closed

march 4th...chapter ended~friends asked "are u serious about it this time?" i am. it was abrupt but it was necessary. guess it has become an empty shell without my acknowledging and i was dragging it along the way. all it took was a strike from a hammer to make me realise that. it is gone. it is no longer the same. and it is time for action. yes, i did it. i became the sinner who made everything go wrong when everything was right for him. and for that, i am truly sorry.

here i blog...

okie yes it's been long...dun blame me~hahahaa!i've been well too occupied with my lazy bones tt i didn't blog...since donkey years ago hahah!

anyway life's been good hee~been clubbing once too many hee!1 week twice...tt's bad eh~!for me definitely...coz i dun usually club tt much...guess tt's what hall life do to u hee!makes u more prone to all these temptations and the plus point is there's no mama to nag at u even when u go home late or dun return at all lol!...guess what i still feel like clubbing hahaha!oops!lai so gonna kill me...eeks!

never mind tt...well a new term started~we just had our term break...and now yes it's march!*brrr* exams coming soon too!horrible!bleahh!and i haven't touch my text so much so tt there is a thick layer of dust all over it...bam!i'm been real lazy...eeks! (ber please bug me!!!haha!)

been quite busy with hall activities too...not tt i had a choice~i need points to stay =( but it seems tt it's a lil too late so all i can do now is to show face more to let the 'on top' ppl know tt i'm worth keeping bleahh!so dieow!on monday we played frisbee from 6+ to 8...had dinner and then i went for some dance thingy at 10.30pm all the way till 1am...crazy isn't it?!and i didn't sleep until like 4-5am...crazy man!resulting in me not going for morning lectures and tuts bleahh!!!darn it!haven't been going for lectures since i moved in...oops!hahaa!it's bad...damn!today...i went down to show face for floorball...played a while and i left to come back hall to slack hee!so bad...but ya i did tell them to call me when they need me hee!hahah!but they didn't...so not my fault...i've been responsible know~well after tt have dance again...it feels good to dance again hee!though we were not as professional as sheila...i know they already did their best!the overall effect was pleasing...but i so have to brush up my steps so i won't throw face tmr...if not i have to wear a paperbag le~ *sobz*

i need points...more points~to stay in hall booo!so sad!bleahh!i will try harder yea?!have to show face more... =(

anyway...

shearm: ya u owe me a visit...come soon maybe?!or perhaps not so soon...wait till my major hols then come...we can party the nite away then come back my hall hahaa!

xiong: huh?!serious...ur friend got a spycam?!hahha~a lil overdoing things yea?!hahha!maybe i will try it out when my things get stolen again ahhaha!anyway do take care on ur taiwan trip!train hard but more imptly play hard too!lol!

blr: sorry haven't been blogging much...i'm so lazy~u know me hahaha!but here i am...so yup~enjoy!*hugs*

okie now lil vonny shall go zzzZZZzzzzzzzzz...take care all till i see ya again! *muahs*