3hrs walk=slim slim legs???

went to watch funkamania with lixin and glady just now...woo it was damn good!really like the smu team...thot they were darn good~but too bad they didn't even clinched any titles bleahh!they were really impressive and their dance had a great impact...super good!but some other team got the first...they were bad!real bad...watched it again and felt the same way~no impact and doesn't leave any after-effects at all...booo!really pity the eurythmix ppl...understand how they feel sighs~been thru it all and felt it all..and suddenly all the past memories and feelings flood my mind...

after tt went to meet pasha...a foreign friend who is studying PHD in nus now when he's only 25?!!!it's so remarkable!really impressive!he's on a scholarship too...crazy nuts!anyway his sis masha came to visit...her first time here in singapore so somehow of showing her around a lil here and there~we went to spaggedies and ate some really yummy food!!!the salad was refreshing...the pasta & pizza was superb...the chocolate cake was even better!!!really marvelicious *slurp* it's on the top of yvonne's recommendations!hahaha!and the service is good too lol!

then tt hearty meal we walked from paragon to plaza singapura to singapore arts musuem then to chijmes...to esplanade then boat quay/clark quay then pass mohamad sultan eventually to zouk...to show the sis how the singapore night life was really about but we didn't manage to get in coz we had to pay so we left~and...tt was all the way from 11-2.30~impressive?!i am a-MUSE-d by the long long hours we walk(haha look ber~)...it's berserk!got home eventually and my legs are so so tired~blair wanna gimme massage hahaaa!but he's so faraway...

better go sleep now...if not can't wake up to play L2 with blair~see i'm so nice yea?!reconsider the leg massage please?!hahahaha!

P.S: after the long wait...i got my HALL!!!feel free to come visit or even stay over hahahaa!cheerios!

the time of the year again

oops been eons since i last blogged...well well~how's everyone doing?hope u guys are fine yea?!hmmm been feeling lazy for quite sometime hehe!after tt ten rounds last mon,i practically slack off...hee!

on tues went to eat sakae sushi with mr lai...it was yummy~but crazy at the same time,he had like 4 chawamushi out of the 6 we ordered~er well ya i had the other 2 lol!so sinful yea?!but when we were there,i saw mr michael low...with the wife and the baby girl~so cute...look like the mummy hahha!should be quite pretty when she grows up...lovely lil girl hee!

on thurs had my first dance lesson ever since SYF...it was some event for women called "pretty tuff" lol!actually signed up for kickboxing as 1st choice...but didn't get~so ended up with hip hop...hmmm it feels good to dance again =) despite the fact tt all my joints have rusted...need some 'lubricant' to make it working well again hahah!think it's a ongoing program for 4 weeks or so...hmmm sounds not bad yea?!at least will be in touch with dance again yipeeeeee!

oh gonna learn salsa too with py...but dunno should do jitterbugs or attitude dance studio(@ymca)~haven't sign up for it yet...dunno which one better~jitter more ex...and i guess the reputation is there...attitude much much more cheaper but never heard of it...gimme some suggestions dy!!!

haven't buy new yr clothes...how how?!sighs~too many choices then dunno what to get...moreover growing fat so make things even worse sighs!exercise exercise!tomorrow 10 rounds again hee!have to make myself go...ber must make me go ahhaa!i'm just so freaking lazy...boooo!

been playing so much this entire weekend...eeeks!went shopping with mr lai on fri...then with py on sat...then played rose and L2 on sunday with blair~so much playing and nothing done...and yes i didn't go school today...told myself should stay home and do work...~i'm gonna get smth done today!!!have to have to... -pouts-

anyway chinese new year is nearing again...my house is filled with the aroma of pineapple tarts haha!the table filled with red covered plastic cans topped up with pineapple tarts heee!it has more or less become a tradition to bake these cookies every time new year approach...it always marks the beginning of the preparation for CNY hahaa!can't wait for CNY to come...coz can get lotsa angbaos and i'm one step nearer to my digicam heehe!really like the festive season coz it's when all the family members come around...awwww~so heartwarming!oh and did i mention all the goodies tt we get to enjoy hahahaha!yummy!see now u know why i'm never slim...hahaha!

such a bummer~gonna go bum hard now hahaha!adios!

breaking apart

ahhhhhh!today i like ran the most in my entire 19 yrs...10 laps round the track CONTINUOUSLY!it's like 4km...but thanks to jc & ber,kept pushing me on & encouraging me~if not think i would've fall flat on the ground after 5 rds...but i'm proud of myself ahah!i'm starting to exercise hee!feeling good though my legs are breaking & my back aching haha!

anyway good news yet bad...think i'll be getting my hostel soon(big thank you to tf to help get us in hee!)~mixed feeling...i'm actually scared tt i'll be home sick awww!i dunno if i'm ready to accept the feeling tt i'm slowly gaining my way to independency even though i thirst for it~...the thought of it just freaks me out eeks!on the other hand,staying in hall would also mean late nights out...more playing games & also more friends...~hmmm it seems to me tt as i grow older i gets more antisocial...booooo!how did it become like tt?-sighs- sometimes i fear knowing new ppl...it's bad!very very unhealthy!bleahh!

oh also today...i completed my half-way done maths tut 1 in school & my phy tut 2 too~haha!i feel good lol!getting more hardworking hahaa!keep it up girl haha!

shall sleep soon...before i really breaks apart haha!

pooped out!

bleahh this few days been playing so much...haven't study at all~boo!need to buck buck up!!!thurs went to movies with mr lai...fri went out with my uni classmates...sat nite went jamming with mr lai...see lotsa fun but no work done bleahh!

it's pretty amazing for me & my uni classmates to go out together esp when we weren't a class now...we were last sem~so perhaps i should say ex-classmates haha!but ya...when we were in the same class nobody bothers to sit together,have lunch together etc. but now when everyone splits class...everyone starts getting together~hahaha!this is so interesting...i was telling peiyun one will only start cherishing when one have lost it~tt's is so true!

oh & after an interval of like 6mths of not going to hear llq jam...this time round,there was really much improvements~though not perfect,it's much much better than last time...but ya i know they are all trying hard ot master everything so yup,must keep it up yea?!lol~after six mths then drag me there again yea?!hee!

today is a crazy day...i slept around 4 + last nite due our a class 'conference'~this morning...woke up at 11am to see blair's birthday party...all the way over in canada haha!really interesting lol!

he 'showed' me his party poopers and his favourite new com haha!it's like his precious~lol!then we began playing lineage 2 from 12+ all the way till like 6...my god!it's crazy~but well those were the days when we played gunbound too ahha!we are all going sira (crazy in flip) sira!sira!but the most most infuriating was when we were standing around talking & these 2 stupid fellow came over & chopped us all up~!!!damn!so angry!!!how rude can they be?!ahhh so so mad!!!*fumes*really yucky doodle~feel like strangling them all at once!!!ahhhhh!!!

for now i'm freaking tired~however today i managed to accomplish my online tut and give tution to my cousin,vernice...hehe!so i guess there's still some things done...anyway i'm dead beat~signing off ciaoz!

ahhhh awww sniffs sniffs!!!

i so miss canada...i wanna go skiing again!i wanna go back to the days where i lose track of time completely...and just dawdle from day to day~booo!sobs!whines!*cries*

a day in NTU

today woke up late...reach sk mrt at like 1130...was suppose to be in school at 1230~in fact suppose to be early coz have to meet friends to pass them books etc.so ended up taking cab from outram...dun understand why so ex~from my house to school it's like $18...from outram it's $14...so ridiculous!then actually was contemplating whether should spend the $14 to go take mc or take cab to school...eventually i decided to be a good girl...so went school~

transaction with my friends done...then rush off to lab~felt so lost...as though it's like my first few days in school my sense of directions decides to abandon me so end up asking my ex-classmate for help...reach the place and there was already lotsa ppl...looked around and realise there's no familiar faces at all -sad- felt like some kind of loner whereas all around me ppl had someone to talk to and all~sighs!so i promptly picked up my phone and started msging my friend ask her should i change to her class~after like 5 mins, left the class with my pencil case and papers to the library...plop down on the nearest available com and started checking for vacancies for the course...thank god there was still space~happily changed my timetable for the umpteen times...or did i mention tt the instructor was late for class?!i sat in there for like 1/2 hr before coming out of class to reshuffle my timetable...so dieow!anyway...

feeling so happy and all about my timetable...went back to the lab venue~hoping tt the instructor wasn't there but too bad he's already half way through the explanation of the labwork...er not like i need the lesson, i thought. waited for like perhaps 5 mins then he was done...everyone started doing their work~& this was when mighty yvonne went in and said to the instructor "i changed class", picked up my bag and left...haha!feeling pretty smug about it...dunno why though~(oh and just now when i dbl check my lab lesson due tomorrow guess what it's actually the lesson i mistakenly thought i need to go for today ahha!it's foolish me at work again~so dieow!)

i then went back to the library and hang around for like 30mins...went on the com and chat a lil...oh ya & saw blair online~ =) after tt had a phy tut...the teacher,i love him!!!haha!he was introducing the subject to the class yada yada yada...then he picked up the attendance list and said "actually i dun really care about this sheet...but i can tell u it definitely doesn't affect ur grades~it doesn't matter if u dun come too...o but u OUGHT to study for the ca coz it gives u like 20% of the final exams...try to revise a bit.it's really easy...i mean during the test u just look 'next door' then also have a 25% chance of getting right..." well wonderful isn't he?!hahaha!much better than our last yr tutor...bleahh!lousy shit! *crap* "when i talk u guys cannot talk." so arrogant fellow~eeks!!!

after lesson i hurried to meet bern and wu yan...wow wasn't i glad to see them~after keeping my mouth shut for the past 4hrs...o man!i think it was beginning to stink lol!we went into the lect hall...half the time think we were talking blah blah blah haha!not even listening much...so notti~think i was the talkative one though *oops*

once lect ended me & bern went to the library and started the tedious job of printing all the notes tt we lack...it's really tiring~ (oh ya special thanks to tianfa for helping~really grateful!) we spend like an hour just to sort everything out and get everything done...wasn't i glad when everything was over *phew*

after after which...we went to the sports recreation centre to find alex & peiyun who was playing badminton coz bern's atheletic cells was bouncing vibrantly in her body lol~she wanted so much to exercise...give her a kayak and she will sail thru south china sea haha! *just kidding* went to look at the gym...hmmm it's pretty strange coz it's like where have all the girls gone to?!at first we thought the gym is strictly for guys only...coz really no girls in sight~all of them pumping their muscles off...pretty scary~no wonder all the girls flee...

and then guess what i took cab home again~tsk tsk!in one day i spend like $25 dollars on cab...it's berserk!!!how can how can...with tt amount of money i can eat so much and buy so much...i can imagine py saying tt already lol~ahhh!but really tired and carried 2 textbook and 1 pile of notes ie equivalent to another tb...wow!my back nearly break...!

on our way home...me & bern were discussing the things we wanna do~there's like so many...driving,learn salsa dance,cut my hair,shop,watch movies,swim,jog & the last thing on our mind was studies~sighs!!!why so yucky ducky sucky!ahhh...this is so bad!!!

okie signing off now...gonna sleep~yawns!

absolutely screwed up!!!

one week has past...school started~it's already the 9th but yet i have done nothing conducive to my studies and also my well being...really really bad~all day long been lazing around...sleeping real late waking in the mid-afternoon...whole day at home but never one touch my tutorials or notes...damn what the hell is happening?!it seems as though my studying spirit has die off since sec 4 o's...guess tt was the last time i really put in effort studying~really f**ked up!!!ahhh!!!

ever since the o's...it just seems as if i can never concentrate on studying hard again...i try to find pleasure in it but sometimes it seems so tough...perhaps i'm not trying hard enough~sighs!so freaking lazy!!!really need a wake-up call bleahh!

however i feel much happier when i work...it's crazy~!!!i dunno if i should take delight in this or not...my mum always say study first u can work all u want when u graduate...no need to be afraid tt u dun have time to work~definitely true

i feel trapped in this society...like i can't breathe~i hate studying!i only love maths...ahhhh!even so i didn't perform well for maths last sem...damn!!!so angry!just so demoralising...but yes i know i deserve it coz i haven't put in effort in it...it really sucks!tell me what am i gonna do...what am i gonna do?what am i gonna do?!

well after much whining...let's get back to studying~after all what else can youngsters in our generation do?!bury urself with piles and piles of notes and assessments...suffocate and breathe ur last~hopefully a miracle happens and pull u out of the heap alive...most of the time tt happens~there might be other side effects though...just look at the number of ppl breaking down everywhere...just be careful yea?dun turn into one of those...

u never know what u gonna get

today met up with py and we went in search of this place called 'my secret garden'...supposed to be some kinda nice chill-out cafe~well we went there...yup the decor and all not tt bad but the pricing, hmm a lil too ex...perhaps due to the location and stuff~but well their desserts are good though and not tt ex...but their service is bad~booo!well perhaps tt's why they dun charge service charges?!but but...grapevine dun too and yet the service is much better~prices wise is good too haha!py was saying i can be the ambassador for grapevine lol~coz i'm always promoting the place...but it's a great place mah lol!not showing favourtism k?!

anway after we left the place...happened to see this small little one storey shophouse art gallery or better known as Sculpture Square~there were showing the inaugural journey of the Ekspress Retro specks Future pixs...sounds profound eh?!it's about this guy who travels by train to singapore pretty often....he took this video sorta thing and show the greenery outside the train during the journey...then there was this video which shows a clock ticking away and the time is on par with reality time...i thought tt was real cool~haha!then we left...feeling all sophisicated and refined lol!tt was something different from our usual routine...

after we left we walked towards waterloo street...and this time,unexpectedly we actually went into the famous guan yin temple to pray lol~and i even went to get a divination lot...then so sad la,it was a bad one~the divination said tt my mind is troubled and no amt of praying will help now...and tt i mustn't listen to ppl and malicious gossips and tt i have to be pious...hmmm think it really quite accurate coz i wasn't really sincere in doing those hee!quite bad ah...but well i left feeling rather religious and was even thinking of going to a church haha!on second thoughts better not coz like not very good coz i just went to the temple so ya must respect the individual religion yea?!

a normal day spent relatively differently...it was rather interesting and fun~perhaps one day i should walk into a mosque or a hindi temple and observe what worshippers do...and understand the mystical style of each devotee~

to end off...here i quote:

"the taste of yesterday call out loud for a pinch of salt from tommorow."
- Ma de Marma

why why why???

began my old letter writing days again with sherry and glady...haha!let's be more environmental friendly and help the earth be a better place lol~look what technology have given us?!more ease and efficiency by writing EMAILS!!!haha!so remember to write to me thru EMAIL!!!(new addie vonked@gmail.com courtesy of ms glady stephanny)

i think it's so scary know...so fast we are turning 20~bleahh...hen kong bu!!!2-3 more years then we will be expose to the evil world out there...boooo!i dun want...have u thot what u wanna be?!think it's really scary...coz everyone will be wearing a cover and hide among the crowd...u dunno who is wearing the devil's horns & holding a knife to backstab u anytime~really hate it to the core

sometimes i wish we can become lil babies and everything in existent is just a plaything won't tt be great?!no chance of getting hurt emotionally...and everytime when u fall we just stand up again~a few tears and some screams after tt everything is all right and tt smile just comes out again...see babies are so easily contented~once they have their toys or some food or the mummy's attention(or perhaps not so)...they hushed up~for adults,we grumble rumble all day long when things go wrong...even when it has been justified they are still not happy about it...still complain,whine blah blah blah...

it's just so silly...even as i'm writing this i'm mumbling too about me not being happy~feeling freaking lazy and it seems tt the more i write the more no sense i make...so i'm gonna vanish! *kapoof*

weee all ready for school!!!

well just did up my organiser for year 2005...this is gonna be a hectic year for me coz i have to buck up on my studies~and really excel in it before i start regretting

know lotsa friends are worried and stuff...please continue doing so and bug me to study haha!i wanna do well and get the exchange program to go to the states then can visit jeff coz it's his last year there~so fast time flies!well today been a lil naughty...had one lecture but didn't go hee!end up singing ktv with py and mr lai hehe!feeling bad yet glad coz bern says it's boring and there wasn't much impt stuff...okie yes yes have to turn over a new leaf become a bookworm *wonders* er well i have never been such a mugger however there is always a first time yea?!hmm so ya will strive towards my goal...hopefully "USA here i come"

just now was talking to my mum...think she is gonna sponsor my driving lessons hee!so gonna learn school i think...anyone can intro me someone really good?!quite hesitant whether should go private...hmmm but really wanna finish it asap so ya i dunno...ppl gimme some views pls~sighs what to do?what to do???private or school?! *hmmmz* my mummy really nice...should not be disappointing her again so all the more my motivation to excellent grades~aim high and achieve...it's a must!!!

i so love studyyyyyyyyyyyying...ha ha ha!keep the spirit burning...dun go off so soon please~

running around like a monkey...

just got home not long from work...think will be sorta my last day coz when the new sem begin i have to concentrate on my studies...bleahh!so yucky yewky!

today such a busy day!my goodness!!!the kitchen bell kept 'ting'-ing non-stop...endless customers flowing in like water...even when the whole place is fully seated still ppl come looking from tables for 3,4,5 and so on~all the cups and pots and mugs all went out...rachel nearly go mad witht all the drink orders...not many ordered alcohol~not very good!think if next time wanna go better make a reservation esp during weekends and special occasions like new year or xmas...if not will end up having to stand or even leave coz no seats available

oh and quite a few ppl came today...saw my sec school friends yunhao,jia ying and this e6 guy...such a coincidence!hahha!but quite awkward...they still do look the same but jia ying's hair much longer...such a pity didn't get much chance to talk to them but o well dunno what to say also...oh and jiaxuan came by too with daniel~so many ppl and things to do tt i didn't have chance to interact with them sigh!but think they enjoying each other company too...hahha!so not like i needed la hahhaaa!lester came too towards the end...hahhaa!went last nite and again tonight...nice place yea?!tt's why will come back haha!anyway what did ur friend say ah...is it complain my service not good haha~hmpf!never mind not like i care bleahh...

think will miss working there coz can see lotsa ppl there...now maybe can only rely on giving tution coz more flexible and more money~but damn boring...sighs!what to do man...seriously in future i can't settle down for a office job coz i will be bored to tears...must do smth tt allows me to mingle around and get to know ppl every now and then tt is fun hahha!i love meeting new ppl hehe!

anyway my eyelids are feeling very heavy...tata everyone!have a jolly well 2005!hear this once coz it won't be repeated ever again...ciao!be merry! *winks*