a thought

as i just finish watching sex and the city season 6 episode 8 "the catch"...there was smth in there which really struck me hard....here it goes:

When you are young, your whole life is about to pursue the fun. Then you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap. And sometimes you don't leap it all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?

Though i'm at the tender age of 19...there is already lotsa things tt i'm afraid to do~ unconciously it just hit me. i end up being not adventurous at all. an example: i have been in hall for like almost a week and a half...till now i have yet to know my hall ppl~ there were events but i just gave myself excuses and not go out there to socialise... i think somehow through time travel i have lost myself. i remember myself out there...very loud and babbly...sociable and crazy ding dong...but now i'm much more withdrawn...this is not the way i like it booo!really hate the way things are now.

I feel that when you grow up, you tend to become more cynical. Why is that so? Perhaps it's how the society is. Or is it just me?

a piece of me

everywhere is bustling with life...

yet here i am in my room...

and all i can think about is him...

why didn't he call...

why didn't he msg...

is he thinking of me...

how am i suppose to know...

i'm just an ordinary girl in an extrordinary world...

tell me what am i suppose to do...

P.S: did i mention my undies just got stolen?!

post new year mood

weeee just got back from my life science quiz...hahhaa!took me like 8mins to complete and i got a 24/40...hmm pretty all right i guess~considering the fact tt i prepared a lil last nite hee!anyway think i'm beginning to enjoy hall life after all...with air con there's nothing else i can ask for hahhaa!

anyway rode on xiong's bike on sat...hahaha!weee!fun fun...quite amazed coz he's a rather safe driver lol~woo!but the scary thing was this...we went to town see~then there's this public carpark behind cineleisure...we were waiting for a parking slot for his bike then we saw this nice lil scooter look alike bike with 2 female riders on it...i was thinking "wow so cool eh" one minute they were smiling and riding away...and the next they were laying on the floor...wasn't too sure what happened too...heard some screams & 1 lady who hysterically grabbed her head and screamt according to wx...i slowly walk there,so scare to see smth really bloody...then i saw like 10+ guys or so lifting up a car...apparently the passenger went under the car somehow...thank god no messy bloody scene but she lost her 2 front teeth...they were both very fortunate coz they escape with only minor scratches on their forearms...phew!no gruesome situations...at least not on the third day of new year~eeks!but the female car driver was totally shaken...poor thing!and then it struck me...are female drivers really tt bad?!lol...no no no~not really tt lousy la yea?!

after i have done my valentine's day shopping...wx met up with his 2 friends~all smokers sighs!we chilled out at ps's starbucks...during tt one hour or so,i think my lifespan have shorten for like 1 yr...my goodness!one stick after another...sometimes 3 of them all at the same time~tsk tsk!really scary~eeeeks!what's so appealing about cigarettes?!really dun like it...esp when i see female smokers even more turn off *oops* guys...would u like ur gf to smoke regardless u smoke or not?!hmmm smth to ponder about...guys do have a fetish of office ladies holding a stick in their hand yea?!the most egoistic i ever heard was from wx's friend..."every guy dream to be a boss coz tt's when they can have a secretary under his desk" damn!nearly wanted to box him!how can guys be so chauvanist?!ahhh!okie of course it doesn't apply to all guys...i know plenty of nice guys too hahaha!but so dieow lo...tsk tsk!wx pls brainwash ur friend a lil~

oh oh one interesting tt i did during this cny...i had my fortune told~hmmm interesting eh?!lol...well some highly ranked thai monk came over to my place and read our palms~my brother,my mum and me!well well here's what he said...i should receive money from my right hand and give out on my left so to ensure more wealth...i cannot agree to any relationship next year ie when i'm 21...this 2 yrs the relationship tt i have won't last...i will get married around 27-28,have 2 kids and my hubby-to-be will be pretty well-to-do...in short i will be quite fortunate~i won't be doing office work but more of doing business...i will be really healthy and tt i will live for a long time...i only have one marriage...and tt hubby-to-be prefably have to be darker than me (not tough to find though) and his birthdate should prefably fall on a mon,sat or sun...oh and and he cannot be doing govt work...lol~tt's about all...how accurate i'm not too sure~but it does have some effect on me though ahahha!believe it or not...well well i have not a single clue~but it's interesting nonetheless haha!

weee it's valentine day today...may all lovers reunite & celebrate this wonderful day hahaa!but of course if u are in love everyday is a valentine's day...heee!though vday is over-commercialised,sometimes girls just love to be pamper esp on this special day ahhahaha!can't deny tt...

gtg study for my next test now...adios ppl!*muahs* love ya lots and lots! *hugs*

*dong dong long chiang*

first day of chinese new year...well it couldn't be better hahahaa!as usual the visting tt took place the entire afternoon...*phew* glad it's all over...we went to like almost 6 places in all~all the grand uncles & aunties' place...it was really nice to be seeing them all over again coz it's pretty much a-once-a-year thing...

well then the usual phrase "wow u grew so much...i dun think i can recognise if i see u on the street..." & it continues with... "last time u still so small...only this tall (hands will be at the waist) blah blah blah..." & " so fast u are studying/working lalalalala..." ahahhaa!i think old ppl are just so adorable...awww! *muahs* long live to the elderly~ there's a chinese saying tt goes smth like having an elderly at home is as good as having a treasure there...i couldn't agree more~really love my granny(my mummy's mum) to bits!she has been there since i was 1 day old...now tt i'm turning 20~she's still here to shower her love,care and concern not only to me...but all the sons,daughters,grandchildren as well~

yesterday during steamboat...(in fact during any occasion tt involves a feast at home) she will always be the last to be seated...she will make sure tt everyone get a bit of this & that~last time i used to wonder why she always so reluctant to come sit down to eat together...now i figured out tt perhaps these are the only times where she can take great care into her children's comfort and make sure they eat well and feel good before she herself starts to enjoy her food...it's really heartwarming yea?! awww! *hugs* loveeeeeee her so so much!ahhhhh!

back to the visting issue...however it gets really tiring and the weather wasn't helping much too...booo!so freaking hot...and it makes ppl sleepy with the heat bleahh!i was glad tt everything was over by early evening...

weee all in all had a great chinese new year~well i think partly was because i rode on a bike for the first time in my life...tt made everything tt wasn't okie,much better now haha!thanks alex for the bike ride~wooo!so much fun...from my house to east coast and back hee!think used up quite abit of petrol but it really felt good haha!so fun...i want it again,again and again~xiong next will be u hahhaa!

rise and shine~

weeee~woke up bright and early at 10 prompt...hahhaa!first nite in hall...eeeks!it's bad...couldn't get to sleep -sobz- ber had backache...bed too hard~for me i just couldn't fall deep into sleep it's sucky doody...i woke up at every 2 hr interval...slept at 2...woke up once at 4,6,then 8 and eventually at 10~how wonderful!maybe this explains the momentary headaches tt i'm having now...due to lack of SLEEP!think there weren't be much chance to sleep in now coz...in the morning it seems as though everyone is up esp the birds~chirping happily away...

but of coz it's a great thing...at least for once in life i'm actually up early lol~this place isn't tt bad after all...it's so much like a resort hahaa!we went for breakfast in the morning...the hot sun penetrating into our skins,the cool breeze greeting our faces...awww the feeling is great!so much so like those when u stay in a chalet lol~i hope this will last lol!hopefully u won't hear me complaining about hall life tt soon hee!

for the first nite...we already went for supper hahaa!how wonderful...it's crazy~it seems that within the 24 hrs we already had like 2 visitors hhahaa!not really in the room but like downstairs lol~...cause our room is just like 1 floor above the car park so peep out of the window u see the cars...so much so like those romeo and juilet balcony scene ahhaha~but of coz not that romantic hahaha!before we shifted in, me and ber were already picturing the-girl-on-top-the-guy-at-the-bottom-strumming-guitar kinda scenario and all lol~it's funny lol!

ahhh have to begin doing tuts...been slacking so so much~booo!just feeeling superb lazy all this while...bleahhh!so dieow!i wanna chase it away... *shoo* but after a while it comes back again hmpf!angry angry...lalallaaa~after new year shall resume my jogging routine again heee...lazy bum off u go!

oh ya and i had my hair cut...heee!feeeling accomplished and all...visited the dentist...cut my hair...bought clothes for new year heee~i'm feeling darn good hahahaa!wait till i figure out how to post pictures then u guys can take alook at some photos tt i have...but well i'm still feeling bummy ahahhaa!so be patient...check around more often hahaa!one day perhaps it will be up...one day heee!

a girl can dream

"A Girl Can Dream"

When I was a child the story would say

Somebody would sweep you off your feet someday

That's what I hoped would happen with you

More than you could know

I wanted to tell you that my heart's in your hands

I prayed for the day when I would get the chance

Just when I worked up the courage to try

Much to my surprise

You had somebody else

Cuz these feelings I keep to myself

[CHORUS:]

I may never get to hold you so tight

I may never get to kiss you goodnight

I may never get to look deep in your eyes

Or so it seems

I always will be wishing you were mine

I think about what could be all the time

All the happiness that I could find

Baby a girl can dream

From the moment I wake up

'Til I fall asleep

I imagine you not with her but with me

Talkin' and laughin'

Sharin' our dreams

It's just a fantasy

Cuz you had somebody else

Cuz these feelings I keep to myself

[REPEAT CHORUS]

A girl can dream it's true

And to call you my own

Is the sweetest dream of all

[REPEAT CHORUS]

Oh a girl can dream

chocolates and peanut butter

chocolates never go with peanut butter...no no!never!

chocolate is creamy and milky...peanut butter is chunky and dry!

no matter what chocolates does not go with peanut butter...NEVER!