Main Entry:
happy
Part of Speech:
adjective 1
Definition:
joyous
Synonyms:
blessed, blest, blissful, blithe, can't complain*, captivated, cheerful, chipper, chirpy, content, contented, convivial, delighted, ecstatic, elated, exultant, flying high*, gay, glad, gleeful, gratified, hopped up, intoxicated, jolly, joyful, joyous, jubilant, laughing, light, lively, looking good*, merry, mirthful, overjoyed, peaceful, peppy, perky, playful, pleasant, pleased, satisfied, sparkling, sunny, thrilled, tickled, tickled pink*, up, upbeat

l-o-v-e, this four letter word that i have abstain from.

it does wonders which can spiral you up to cloud nine. and yet, there are days whereby you are tormented by its catastrophic wtihdrawal symptons. it is like a drug that consumes you when you overdose it. however, there are no rehabs for you to get rid of it. it just makes you thirst for more & more. there is no cure once the addiction kicks in. you are doomed. it is scary like a monster which haunts you day and night. it makes you think of that someone every single time. it reminds you of that someone no matter where you go. "is that love?" some will ask. seriously, no one knows. it is often confused with possessiveness as there is only a thin line of separation. it makes you want to be there for him/her regardless what happens, be it cheating, lying, betraying, stealing, killing, robbing. it makes you want to stay with him/her through thick and thin. it makes you lose ur mind and you lose the power to differentiate right from wrong. it makes you just want to be there together with him/her. it makes you want to cover up his/her flaws. it makes you want to quit all your vices, be it smoking, drinking, gambling. it makes you smile deep inside when that someone shows signs of concern. it makes you glee in joy when he/she is a little jealous. it makes you do all sorts of crazy things. it makes you do things you dislike. it makes you want to do things you like even more. it drives you crazy when you lose it. it makes you cry when you realise you no longer have it. it makes you bitter at the thought of it. it is a strange and amazing thing. it evokes all kinds of emotions. it is something which you are scare of. it is something yet which you cannot live without. it is something that you go searching for, up, down, left and right. it is something that fills the empty void in the heart. it is something which you have no control over. it is something that I am unsure of. and it is definitely something that you are not able to provide me with.

crushed

i realised i haven't been doing any proper blogging in a while. sorry my friends. you know i still love you don't you? in case you don't, please believe me, i DOOO!!!

anyway, as you may know, school started for me. another new sem rushing right into my face & everything seems to fly by so quickly that sometimes i feel i cannot catch my breath. eeks hate it this way. worse thing is, the hols went by so quickly & perhaps due to working part-time, it never really did occur to me that 'oh here are the hols'. but o well, who will get enough of hols? it's best when it's never-ending haha!

this just reminds me of smth i read from somewhere...
'There are 2 things in this world that is never-ending. One, it's the universe. Two, it's stupidity.'

wahahahha...i totally agree!!!

mental block..take care for now =)

i hate that i do not hear from you...
i hate to feel so much about you
i hate to admit that the simplest things you do brings a smile
i hate to wonder if my feelings for you are reciprocated
i hate the fact that the list can go on & on..

all in all, i hate myself for being weak
ARGHHHHHHHHH!