new blogskin...

heya ppl...yes this is new~a lil weird though...coz the counter doesn't appear and the tagboard...u have to click on the legs twice then will appear...it alternates between the phrasing and the tagboard...so yup~enjoy!

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

one for you

love so blind
love so selfish
but at the same time
it can be self-sacrificing
what's with this four letters
that spells l-o-v-e
that binds people all together
and cause so much pain and happiness all at once

a 'i miss you' over the phone
accompanied with a distressing voice
fills my heart with so much guilt
but there's nothing i can do
stay away i can say
i'm no angel but one true sinner
i don't wanna hurt you again
so let it go at that

i believe happiness will find you someday

bless

going crazy

Going Crazy - Natalie

Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold

My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo

When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go

I just broke down

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice

Cuz the feeling that I feel within No other man would ever make me feel so right

Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night

But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me

I miss the way you hold me tight

[Bridge]

I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch

I never thought that I could ever love a man so much

I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny

For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus ]

Thats right baby I'm going crazy

I need to be your lady

I've been thinking lately

That you and me, yes we can make it

Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel

From the moment that I met you its been so damn real

My heart seems to skip another beat

Every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak

Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me

And you love me I'm your lady

I'll be around waiting for you I'll put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you

I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?

It's true, no fronting

Its you and no other i can no longer go on without you

I'll just break down

hidee ho~

wee have this sudden urge to blog...well today such a rainy day~i slept at like 8am in the morning and woke up around 4 pm...wonderful!!!lol!great feeling to sleep in...yeah!

have like 8 more days before my nightmare ends...ahhh can't wait!!!so wanna get down to the club and feel my body groovin' to the music~woot!!!haha!

i'm bored from studying...shyt shyt~!!!how come like that?!tsk tsk!!!lose my momentum so quickly...just after one paper and all the urgency all gone~eeeeeeeeks!!!this cannot do.... *shakes head* bleahh!!!

i am fantasizing about marriage haha!just imaging what will it be like 5-10 years down the road when everyone around me gets married weeee!so interesting...attending weddings,preparing for weddings,being involve in ur own wedding WOW!hahahaha!however the candidate of my groom-to-be is so vague,so unclear...no candidate in mind hee!but well i guess it's smth all girls dream about...the one big day in their entire life where they look forward to...maybe i dunno~haha!not all girls wanna settle down so quickly hee!just be happy most importantly...if u are happy,nothing else matters hee!the sky can fall and u can treat it like a blanket hahaha!lalallalaa...

let's all laugh our day away...keke!exams drive ppl mad,pardon me please!

anyway i think this is a beautiful song...wonderful by everclear~enjoy!

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
Say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream adventures that will make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now
(Na na na na na na na....)
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh alot so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
(Na na na na na na na....)

I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just wanna my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays I hate everythingeveryone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
(Repeat Until End...)

pretty yea?!hahaha!

i just don't understand how i can smile with all the tears in my eyes and tell you everything will be wonderful someday...

i am brave...what else?! *smug look on face*

a growing realization

friend or foe?!i never knew how to distinguish from them....

yes definitely there's those kinda ppl whom at first sight u dislike and u know u dun wanna get close to them...then along with human nature u keep away and become unfriendly towards them....and only after some conincidental meetings eg. parties u find them they are actually pretty amiable...tt's good news of course

and so of course those kinda ppl whereby they appear really goodie goodie shoe but actually backstab u behind...glad to say i dun have any or should i say i dunno any of these friends around me coz if so i will definitely kick them way into the ocean

now this is the case that i'm warning u about...u guys appear to real bestest of friend or it seem so coz when he have trouble he come looking for u...u hear him out and comfort him,u are always there for him,thinking he will be here for u too if u need him...but when u ask him 'can u be here for me' he thinks of all sort of excuses and think u are up to smth no good...yes he care, he asks ' are u okie?' of course i will be! f**k off u asshole! should have seen through the mask of BAD GUYs like tt...but my unassuming personality always believe that things cannot be that bad,there must be a reason behind all these doings,he must be busy...

well sad to say, i'm getting weary...from looking for all these excuses to cover up for some worthless piece of shyt's misconduct...i'm just a friend not a parent of a child who forgives and forget...i may forgive but i will never forget...i've learnt and will never forget...time will wash off all wounds but the scar will still remain...a reminder of my misconception

oh yes did i mention i went for my first paper of the examinations...congratulations i found myself banging on the table with the tons of questions on series!TOTALLY SCREWED UP!!!when i prepared the most for it...grrrr!!!hard work doesn't bring you the results....bleahh!!!or maybe i should revise on my method of working sighs!!!9 days more till end of exams...

BLAST AWAY!!!!!!

cold night filled with rain
head groggy with alcohol
empty right inside
but where are you when i need you most
somewhere safe and sound
somewhere warmth in another's embrace
words come easy
for that's all you have for me
i deserve much better
i know it and i will find it
with or without the existence of you
my life goes on just like yours
leave me alone and get away
for i want nothing else to do with you

truly me

night falls,
day come.
you were here,
and then you were gone.
delighted i was.
upset to see you go.
seems like my life has always been so.
daybreak and dreams gone.
what should i do?
to keep you here
right where i can hold.
and not in a faraway place
where only thoughts follow.
i hate myself for being so.
but that seems to be the only mean,
i can, to have things my way...

hee just felt this little bit of inspiration tingling and here it is...a small verse out of me...it doesn't come often and it isn't perfect...but at least it is smth to relieve me of my exams stress...*boingz* back into the reality world i come =)