Wednesday, December 29, 2004

loved yet feeling empty...

think i'm going bonks...i dunno how to express myself hahahaa!so much i wanna say...yet i can't seem to find the right words to phrase them in~boooo!sometimes i wish i'm a scriptwrite or smth...then can represent my feelings in all the nice nice sentences haha!or perhaps be a scriptwriter of my life and write my life for myself and live a happy ever after life!*dream on*

i'm feeling loved...mr lai been doing lots to make me feel tt way~though some of it may be as simple as cooking maggie mee for me hahaa!it may sound crappy...but still i appreciate it!

today is a cold cold nite...while i was walking home there was a small group of ppl walking behind me~mixture of 3 guys & 2 girls...then i dunno if it was the cold weather which aids in removing all the odours of the roads but i can smell clearly the perfume one of the guys was wearing...so manly and nice~then all of a sudden i wished i had someone next to me to hold me and gimme some warmth...awww!u know tt kinda feeling which just suddenly comes and overwhelmed you...and then i realise it's been long since i talked to someone on the phone for very very long~i miss the feeling of it!in the wee hours it is just so nice to be talking to someone when you are tugged snuggly in your blanket...man the feeling is so far gone tt it is almost alien to me now~it doesn't even matter if u are not talking...even the sound of breathing can be so comforting at times...

and now i wished i can have tt chance...tt chance to just hear you breathe


Friday, December 24, 2004

i dream...

now listening to 'i dream' by taufik batisan...proud to be known as the 1st singapore idol (but i prefer sly a million times,he sang better for this song hahaa!it was simply enchanting!!!awww!)

christmas eve...and i'm all alone~well there's mr lai on the phone if it's counted...i'm feeling rather emotional now booo!bad bad feeling...so sergeant lai,better be careful ah!

talking about xmas...we have like 3 xmas together sorta~1st one we weren't together yet tt was back in 2002...but i was in japan and he was in singapore missing me hahaha!2nd one...well it was a sad one coz he was the grinch who stole my xmas away...then today is the 3rd one...again separated coz my uncle's wedding tomorrow then need to wake up early morning...sobz!!!

sad...i miss spending xmas with alot of ppl...esp my dear friends py,xuan and hil~2 out of 3 attached with their bfs...i miss them all!i miss the joyous celebration of xmas...i feel so down!!!

mr lai gave me a thousand piece winnie the pooh and friends puzzle for xmas~awww so sweet rite?!he spent one week on it...ie all of his block leave on the puzzle hee!each day spending plenty of hours...really very thoughtful~ *muakzs* love ya hun!

anyway merry christmas to all...hope u guys have lotsa fun!meet up real soooon everyone k?!esp glady and sherry ah...our outing still not yet establish boo!also py we need to meet up with shear maine and wq!!!and er our good friends too~all the four of us...need to meet up real soon before school starts!best wishes my friends...hugs and kisses thrown to u!!!have a mishy mushy moshy year ahead~ *winks* cheerios!




home at last!~

hohoho!i'm finally home after the long long days away...i seriously suffering from homesick bleahh!i miss home,my friends and fooood...hahaha!first thing i touchdown yesterday evening i bought a mushroom swiss haha!i miss the food alot alor!!!i love singapore food...slurp~

well shall not dwell too much on those...shall tell u guys how everything went hee!

name of airline taken: cx
total number of hours of flight:36 hrs +
total number of planes taken: 6
total number of airports we went: 6
total number of people: 14+1(15)

okie roughly tt's about it...my goodness!each time i stepped into the aircraft i can't wait to get off...we took a 4 hours flight to hong kong and meet up with my uncle's friend...auntie joyce with her 3 kids,kat,chris,tim and the maid,anda~then flew the 14 hr flight to vancouver

anyway did i mention my uncle's kids...he have 3 of them too~min,jin and yang...also my auntie's niece and nephews,jolin & ronald was on the trip so we embark on our journey to the land of maple leaves haha!

day 1 - we arrived in vancouver early in the morning aroud 10...check in at four seasons and then went to eat our lunch at some japanese restaurant~everyone was tired from the long hours of flight...some of the kids fell asleep on the futons~esp yang coz he was a little hero...he didn't sleep thru'out the flight to canada...shortly after lunch we went back to our hotel and took a nap. in the early evening the sky was all dark...pitch dark just like the night.we woke up and went to their megastore sears to get our skis clothing...after all tt was done,we retire for the night

day 2 - we had like half day left in vancouver and we have yet to get our snow boots!panic panic!we ran around the place looking for the suitable shoes and prices.finally we found it...all of us tried, settled our shoes, then we head on to the world ranked no. 2 ski resort --whistler mountains. on the way there,the scenery was breathtaking~wow!mass of water and huge mountains joined in line to form beautiful pictures of nature...and for the first time in my life,i saw tons of snow and they were really pure white~it's so so pretty!!!the whole winter wonderland feeling just came down on me...so as i was saying the nice nice apartment turn out to be exactly the same!!!darn nice!!!really huge...four bedrooms on the ground floor with 3 toilets...one kitchen with a huge dining area...and a huge living room...upstairs is the family entertainment room installed with all the tv and stereo set...way cool!

day 3 - ahha here's where the real fun begins...muahahhahaha!we woke up early in the morning and went around getting our ski equipments~we bought the gloves and goggles and went to rent the skis~bad start coz i got cut the first thing i took my skis from the person damn!after a quick lunch we all attempted to put on the heavy skis boots on...it sucks man!coz it's really hard it hurts the feet and it's really hard to walk down stairs with it on...scary!till now i'm still having a little phobia when going down stairs haha!all right back to skiing...we have 3 intstructors,ken the reckless flirt,tim the trying-too-hard guy and jeff the father kolar...haha!first session was the toughest...we were all new on the skis except for min,jin, yang and uncle who have skied before...so everything down to the basic!right in the learning centre, we had to climb up small gentle hill to get on the 'magic carpet' which was some electronic belt similar to a travlletor and ski down the hill...over and over,we did tt~all of us complaining...coz it's freaking tired esp when i haven't exercise much for the past year or so ever since j2 prelims (i'm disgusted by tt too) so much for tt,we are done for the first day of skiing...

day 4, 5, 6, 7... it was more skiing and more skiing as the day goes by~it was fun!!!hella lot of fun...we went up green runs and did blue runs too which were slightly tougher and more steep slopes as compared to the green ones...after a couple of runs of those ahhaa!the magic carpet was nothing haha!i remembered falling quite a lot every day hahaa!it was funny!i enjoyed the falls ahahhaa!but there were days when the weather was bad and the snow was hard~i ended up with big bruises on my knees boo!they have this run called the seventh heaven...i tell u the view is magnificient!!!absolutely lovely!u feel u are at the top of the world...u are actually...i'll try to figure out how to upload the pictures~it's awesome!!!one thing i dread about skiing is the food...bleahh!!!everytime we have to go up some lodge and then all they have was fries,pizzas,burgers and stuff similar~boo!!!everyday of the same stuff makes me wanna puke...but no choice u are up in the mountains u have to make do~sighs!anyway when we were up there in the resort,we completely lost track of time and date coz there was hardly a clock in the house...guess it was meant to be this way or smth~tt's what a holiday is about yea?!haha!before we went down the mountains,we did dog sleding...it's a pretty sad sight~all the dogs pretty skinny and some looks weak but all had to pull the sledge...man!i nearly cried when i hear their whims and howls~booo!say no to dog sleding!!!

after 10 days or so we got down from the mountains and went back to vancouver~we had fri night,sat and sun left in canada then monday morning we leave for hong kong...the shopping at canada was fantastic!!!there were tons of sales going on and they really do mark down the prices it way good!!!but sad to say their sourvenirs were pathetic...it's like maple syrup anyone?!bad bad...so sorry all my friends didn't manage to get stuff for u guys...i only have chocolates which is damn damn nice!!!will let u guys try when we meet up k?!hee!

then in hongkong it was simply a eating trip...walk around then eat my god!the shopping there sucks!!!the place we went to was simply a duplicate of paragon...lovely things but outta our reach sighs!never go too pacific plaza unless u have the spending power...then after our 3 days 3 nights stay there we came back to singapore...i'm so happy to be back~feeling rather disorientated though ahaha!

tt's about it all...will write again when i remember anything interesting...i think i'm suffering from jet lag~i'm so dead...i woke up at 6.30am~a change for me?!i dun want....boo!!!


Monday, December 06, 2004

i'm leaving on a jetplane...

oh man...seven hours before i board the plane~i'm excited!well well...now i'm feeling so f**ked up coz i can't play lineage 2 no matter how much space i cleared for it~i deleted all of my satc!!!4 SEASONS!!!u know how long it took me to dl?!damn!!!shucks!i'm getting real mad booo!!!just gotta get from zhu en since he have the first 4 seasons of it...*sighs*

anyway think i was getting a little cranky just now...or perhaps it's the lazy bug at work again~i just couldn't get down to packing!all the clothes will lying there...piles and piles but i just can't seem to put them in...it's bonkers!it went to the extend tt i have to ask my mum to help me with it...it is such a simple task~o man!what was i thinking?!was it like some post-holiday stress?!i wonder...

really appreciates my mum lots!she is really nice awww!a mother is always a mother *hugs* love her so mucccccchhhh!!!guess there's times when i disagrees with her but well deep down i know she is the greatest *muakz* talking about shopping for clothes for my uncle's wedding...it still came back to her to go shopping with me and we managed to grab a pretty decent deal i would say hee!i'm happy at least haha!well she might not be the greatest fashion consultant but she is always there to give her views awww!tt's just so sweet!i'm gonna miss her!all rightey getting all too motherly now...just wanna say thanks mum alot alot!

mr lai is gonna go to the airport tmr...he took off especially but think he too is a little lazy hahaa!anyway i'm feeling bad~boo!suddenly realise i owe him some stuff...the photo frame tt i have yet to decorate...the belated birthday present tt i have yet to buy...the coming xmas present...and i dunno,here and there some stuff tt i promise to get or do tt i didn't...damn!i'm bad!

must admit tt i'm forgetful sometimes...i hate ppl to break promises but yet i do it myself,right before my own eyes~what's going on?!it totally sucks!why is it always not okie when others do smth to u...but it is acceptable when u do it to others?ahhhhh need to do some reflection here...booooooooooooo!

think i need some sleep...i'm getting all cranked up~!i'm not writing sense or maybe tt's what i think...self-denial always allowed!


Friday, December 03, 2004

peRfect cHristmas

was just listening to s club seven,perfect christmas...awww lovely song!it is such a nice festive song...bringing everyone right into the mood for a white xmas...ahhhhhh!

watched bridget jone's part 2 yesterday with py...it's awesome!so sweet and romantic and also it brings along pangs of laughter ahhaa!romance comedy...great!i would have miss out so much if i haven't seen the part 1 a few days ago...i just love the wedding of the parents~sweet old classic purple and its varying shades woo!!!my all time favourite lover!*muakzs*

after tt we went to grapevine to chill...i just love tt place~so cosy and perhaps the fact tt i work there makes me feel more at home whenever i'm there hahaa!anyway i'll be working later tonight...hee!lotsa disputes from my mum and mr lai...both unhappy for different reasons boo!but i dun care...i'm gonna work...coz can earn at least a $50 i think...moreover it's their opening nite for the new extension branch...hahaha!

but llq is really sweet...he said he'll walk me home when i finish work coz if not he won't see me for today hee!i thought it was real sweet =) *hugs* 2 days before my trip draws nigh...so excited but at the same time feeling quite lost~dunno what to bring etc. like too many things to bring...dunno if bringing too many or what damn!really sucks!however better to bring more ere not enough hahaa!

well anyone wants anything from canada?!tag me and i'll see what i can do...so long~*waves*