random thought

As we grow up, we gradually gain control over things. We begin to take charge of little things like daily happenings around us to the direction of our lives. We control our emotions, feelings & actions in order to attain what we are seeking for. At the end, when we get what we want, are we really happy inside? How many times have we actually lost ourselves in the process of doing so?

I remember when i was young, the little me just went around doing things i like and want to. It may be playing in the rain & getting all drenched while in school uniform. It may be walking barefooted in the middle of the night down Orchard Road. It may be public display of affections, be it with friends, lovers or family. It was the way that I managed to stay oblivious and ignorant of any unwanted attention that makes life good. Life used to be so much more carefree & definitely filled with more laughter. Nowadays, there are so many other factors to take in mind. Especially when one grows up & age comes bogging down, the mindset matures & changes with the expectations of society. The eyes of the onlookers may just bring you to the talking topic of the entire media with the advancement of technology. How scary is that.

With so many considerations & responsibilities, are we actually in, or out of control? I think it's more of the latter.