double 'bliss' (hopefully)

Second paper today. Well well, was stressing out in the morning coz there was so much to memorize and somehow my brain just refused to cooperate.

One o'clock came and I left the house. Wishing time would faster pass and I can 'perform' my verbal regurgitation asap and empty whatever has been up there for the past 2-3 days. Happily entered the examination as two thirty came. To my horror, the brilliant me left my wallet at home and leaving myself identity-less =( Told myself, don't worry, just tell the invigilator, i'm sure they know what to do. So I did just that and comfortably sat myself down.

Lay out my pens nicely, place my water bottle on the table, took off my watch, jacket, scarf, whatnots... then started staring into space and hopefully time would come by faster so that the paper will begin soon.

Just then, this guy came by and asked if I was in the wrong seat. And I was quite sure I was at G558. The invigilator mentioned that we could check the seating plan at the back. I quickly took out my phone where I record my seat number. Only then did I realized 'oops, i was at the wrong seat.. mine was G553.' The embarassed me quickly gathered my stuff and scrambled to the back of the row. What a frantic beginning!

Soon 1430 came and we were given reading time. The examination was pretty all right. Quite similar to the past year papers except for some 'surprises'. All in all, it was fine and I think I did nailed it =) Two economics paper down.. feeling good about the both of it and I think my love for economics has caught me unaware coz I think i'm gonna miss doing it.

Next two.. marketing papers, 6th and 7th Nov. Ahhh so dead so dead!!!

P.S: Left examination hall early so didn't get a chance to take pictures of my desk.. so here's some pictures of my study 'environment'

My 'wonder' pens.. Supplements to keep the brain working well.. Biscuits and Sweets.. And my lovely friends who are constanly on my mind and to keep me accompany..My view from the window overlooking an overgrown garden.. What a 'beautiful sight'!A sign which I saw on the way home. Almost all the indecency you can find in two phrases. Try reversing the order and it will become 'Cock-Ram-Hooker'? Interesting!

First of the last...

First paper today was at 1430 at Caulfield Racecourse. Seat Number G0447.

Started the paper around 1445. After the 10 minutes reading time, I was glad that the paper was rather similar to the sample exam paper other than some minor differences.

Was so worried that I would not have enough time for the paper coz I spent almost 30 mins on the first question. Urged myself to write as fast as I could without compromising too much on my legibility. Did good time when I am done with my third question. 6 question in 2 hours. Too much to write and too little time. Eventually managed to complete the other 3 question in 50 mins and even gave extra information for some parts. Hopefully it would be reflected in my grades.

After-thoughts: I feel as if I am done with exams but in actual fact, it's only the first paper -_-

Well, it's back to studying for other papers. Am done with my 29th paper, just need to attempt the past year papers for that. Keeping my fingers cross for my two marketing papers on 6th and 7th. I can smell salvation coming my way.... weeeeee! 'stop daydreaming'

A picture before I go...

Final stride in the field of academic

Lo and behold, tomorrow marks the beginning of the very very last examinations I would ever have as a student.

Feelings? I am at a loss of what to feel. Before nearing/reaching the end of my academic life, I would say I was rather excited and eager to place myself out in the society and experience for myself what the world has got to give. Now, when I am here myself, a part of me wants to return back to the life of being a student. Honestly, the best job one can get is to be just a student. The 3 months of hectic workload is usually rewarded by an equal amount of holidays. And no need to remind everyone, the carefree days of being a student is no longer a luxury for the working class. How sad!

Anyway, this is just gonna be a short post. I will post another one tmr after my paper. I reckon I should jot down some of my very last memories of having an examination before I can hardly remember them anymore as the years pass by.

Take care my friends! Ta!

Time passes and things change...

I was browsing through facebook (though I really should be studying for my exams in 12 days' time, oops). Anyhow, I came across someone whom I know from a brief encounter, who got married due to the growing bun in the oven. I know there's nothing to be overly surprised since there are many such happenings going on these days. It just amazed me how so many things can happen over time.

Won't it be nice if things do not really change that much? Sadly, my revelations tell me otherwise. Things pretty much happen overnight and tada, the very next moment when you see the light, it is all different. Eventually, it makes you think twice if you really have a clear understanding of what's going on intially.

And now, I am just wondering how would one find someone who would really stay dedicated to you throughout the many years to come? Isn't it tough, for one is always changing? Yes, it may be for the better sometimes but in some cases, it may be for the worst. It seems that one cannot never grasp the everchanging future so having faith is most important?

My personal opinion and perhaps it may serve as a note to the girls (and maybe the boys) out there... A guy is worth considering:
1) when he respects all women-kind
2) when he treats a lady like a gentleman
3) when he would give up little things in life to make you happy
4) in the event when he is unable to send the lady home, he would text the lady and ask if she arrived back safely
5) and if talking about marriage, he would make the effort to give the lady the most decent proposal as best as he can

Thus, my sentiments about a guy's worthiness before progressing any further. Of course, guys who casually say, "Brothers are forever and women are just like shirts." Well, I can only say it's such a disappointment to know this.

endless munching

i have been snacking so much lately.. arghh! it's terrible! chocolates, ice-cream (my crazy obsession with il freddo), chocolates and more il freddo... like my msn nick, it's seriously 'work, eat, il freddo, sleep' for the past 2 days. wahhh!

good thing is the weather was good enough for a run today.. so i put on my runners and happily pranced around my neighbourhood =) did i mentioned spring is almost here? come sept! i can almost feel it. the weather is getting warmer with each day. the forecast predicts one week of nice sixteens/seventeens. yipee!

i've been so lazy... i can't stand it. but yet i'm indulging in it haha! ironical isn't it? i'm getting bored... my days are filled with events. but i'm bored. how can it be? i don't quite get it too.

BORINGGGG!

extravagant indulgence

after the pampering on wed, the never-seemed-to-be-satisfied lady in me continue its rampage. the following days was filled with endless cravings of il freddo and yummylicious cakes at crowns bakery. all of which was dutifully consumed on the fateful Saturday.

to add on to my decadence, yours truly went on a crazy shoe-shopping which resulted in 3 pairs of oh-so-lovely shoes from nine west. to justify my spendthrift act, i would like to say that i have been shoe-hunting for the longest time. honestly, the shoes they have here are usually too unbearable (both in designs and prices, which are just ridiculously high). the ones which i bought are heavily discounted and you would have to concur with me that nine west produces decent shoes and at prices so affordable, which lady in the right mind would be able to resist the temptation of owing a few pairs too many right?

and i have been eyeing 2 of it for the longest time. AND my poor feet needs some heels quite badly. so it's really a long over-due treat to myself. plus plus, the birthday is coming so it justs give me even more rhyme and reason to spoil myself just a little hee.

with the endless cold wind chilling the daylights out of me, it is only the right thing to do to snuggled in the comfort of one's blankie and read her story book till the end of time, while sipping hot tea and disregards whatever deadlines that are coming up. don't you agree with me? haha.

the closing ceremony is coming up later in the evening. wasn't it the opening ceremony which we just watched the other day? time flies really quickly when you're not looking. please come back again soon my dearest weekends. i will miss you dearly. to school it is, when monday comes. blahh..

don't quite understand..

today i had a pretty good day. it was one which requires little but gives plenty of pleasure. went to the City Library and discovered a splendid collection of fiction books. it is the haven for bookworms! best part is that the library allows you to loan up to 30 books for 3 weeks and you can do the renewal online. isn't that wonderful?

with 2.5 hours before my haircut, i promptly marched into koko black and indulged in some sinful desserts. had the chocolate cake with 2 shortbreads which comes with a thick chocolate mousse at the side. the mousse compliments the pastries so well. yummm!

sitting there alone, reading my book, taking small bites of the delites, and watching the world goes by.. it was such a wondrous feeling! i was thinking to myself, "i could really get use to this!" what a spoilt lady i can become if only the world out there was as simple as i dream it would be.

i returned home, feeling satisfied and happy with my haircut and my relaxing afternoon. cooked dinner and even experimented my housemate's champion bread pudding. i should be feeling contented for such a fruitful day has passed by.

however, why do i feel so flustered inside? it has reached a point whereby i have become such an irritant to the people around me. i presumed the swings have hit me pretty hard. or is this just an excuse for myself? i wonder..

for the thousandth time..

did i mentioned, i miss everyone back home?

especially my dearest family..
the many nights, which i have taken for granted and spend the evening in my room after dinner, instead of staying in the living room to interact with my family. that would be something which i would refrained from when i get back

two, my 3 beloved girlfriends..
it has been 10 years since we met. our friendship, i would describe it as strong and blissful. the friendship we have, is based on mutual understanding and sincerity, much care and plenty of concern (okie, many other friendships too). my point is, for some people, their friendship is filled with fiest and quarrels due to one party being too frank/too much/insensitive etc. for us, we do things the gentle way. no quarrels, no fights. maybe a rare few stern tones and some reminders. mainly, we offer advices and in the end, we support her regardless her decision is. and me agrees with this way of doing things.

definitely all my other friends which i did not mention here (you know i care)..
those who have been very nice to me, those who i always have supper with, those who makes me laugh, those who irritates me (or let me irritate them), those who i talk to occasionally, those who i used to talk to alot but less these days, those who i have fun with, those who have left a footprint in my heart..
i miss you guys too

Off to bed now. Lesson at 10am tomorrow. Wakie at 8am to catch the 1.5 hours ride to school for a pathetic one hour tutorial. Good thing, school is from Mon-Wed. Long weekend to make up for the sucky timetable.

P.S: I watched the online screening of NDP2008 during this event organised by the three universities, Monash, RMIT, Uni Melbourne. One thing to bring up is, never had I feel so patriotic to my country before. It's unbelievable how much pride I sang our national anthem with haha.

impulse

After talking to my best friend yesterday, I found out that she is doing relief teaching in a primary school. All of a sudden, a part of me wants to experience teaching too. It has been on my mind for a while now. Not full time teaching though, just relief teaching.

While talking, fond memories bring me back to my primary school days when there will be relief teachers coming into school and staying with us for 3 months and then leaving. Despite the short span, all the students was so appreciative and the teachers left with bagfuls of thank-you gifts and cards. It just goes to show how adorable little kids are in primary school days. And also, the teachers who did made an impact in our lives. I am keen to be that one person to make an impact on the lives of the little ones of the future.


Do you think I am able to do so? Say maybe 3 months before I pursue my dream for flying? Haha. I will teach them how to party like a rockstar? Lol

Okie maybe not. I will tell them how tiring it is to be a rockstar. See, I have a picture to prove that a rockstar sweat black tears which is no easy stunt. Right, kids?

搞不清状况

我真搞不懂。。

你就那么喜欢他/她吗？

Lost in transition

Just when I thought everything was a mistake right from the start and was beginning to question my own faith, I received the best thing a girl could have.

Unconditional love and support from mummy.

You're the strength which will pull me through this journey of mine in seek of independence. I am grateful for your love, your trust and your support (both spiritually and financially). For you make me feel like I am the most blessed child around with such a giving parent. Words cannot express my gratitude towards you. But still, thank you so much for believing in me when I am doubting myself. It means the world to me.

*****

I received two notifications to collect an item from the post office. Turn out, there was two parcels waiting for me. I am really fortunate to have friends who loved me just as much. Thank you to you-know-who. It brightens up my day!

P.S: I have not open it yet. In the midst of exams preparation. The parcels shall be saved as a reward to mark the end of my exams ie coming Thurs *can't wait*

Both sides now

WARNING! This is a depressed post. Do not read if you're not feeling good already. The author will not be held responsible for the consequences.

I feel like a total wreck. Lately, I have been busy with my new house. The setting up of the place is taking the toil out of me. It's not helping that I have an assignment coming up. Yes, blame myself for being such a procrastinator. Been sleeping 8 hours everyday but still feel so lethargic. To make things worse, the mornings are getting colder as autumn slips into place. It just makes me feel even more depressed each day.

To be so far away from home, from all the warmth that my friends and family can give me just make me feel even sadder. I wish I can fly back now immediately to immerse myself in the sunny island. who says hot weather is not a good thing? [Disclaimer: This may be a spur of anxiety at the moment. I may end up contradicting myself at the end of 10 months]

I am missing so many things at this moment.. My beloved family, my precious friends, the familiarity which Singapore gives me.. I miss you, him, her, them, us.. it's a bad feeling to be missing so many things.

To end off.. I'm gonna leave you with the lyrics of a song. Very depressing song. So if you want to feel sad.. go listen! [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqQlfFuQFXo]
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Both sides now

Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I’ve looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its cloud illusions I recall
I really don’t know clouds at all

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
I’ve looked at love that way

But now its just another show
You leave em laughing when you go
And if you care, don’t let them know
Don’t give yourself away

I’ve looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
Its loves illusions I recall
I really don’t know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I’ve looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I’ve changed
Well some things lost, but some things gained
In living every day

I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
Its life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all
I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all

What's becoming..

Sorry for the hiatus. It's been long my friends since I last update. I am good and so is Melbourne. However, after being here for the past 2 months or so, it makes me realise how things can change in a snap. 

First, the unpredictable moodswings of the weather. One moment the sun is shining brightly, the next there is a cyclone warning over the radio and the news on tv shows trees being uprooted and building collapsing. All this while, I was in the lovely Royal Arcade, sipping hot chocolate with dear Kaisi who had a one-day stopover. My housemate alerted me the very moment he saw the broadcast. Made us so scared as it was our first time experiencing the temperament of the weather. Above our heads, we could see the rain smashing hard upon the glass panels. For a moment, we were glad we had each other for company. We decided to wait out and guess what? An hour later, we're walking down the peaceful streets which makes all the drama before uncalled for. Overnight, the morning came with a chilly dip of 4 degrees. Isn't the weather crazy? Today, the sun was up and shining brightly just before noon. 

With the good weather came along good news. I am officially no longer HOME-less! It's great news at such desperate times. Pretty like the 'new' house (pun intended - it's an old vintage house) but it's roomy so all is good. Going to Ikea to do some furniture shopping. I have decided to go for a purity theme which means white white white! We'll see how things go along the way.

Have been thinking deep these days. Am beginning to worry when the year comes to an end. Where will I be then? What will I be doing? Who will I become? How will things be like? So many thoughts running through my mind. But yet, no answers. Presently, am lost in translation.

I miss Singapore.. especially my friends. Am worried for a particular one & certainly hope things will turn out for the better. My band of brothers, each one of you, hope school will be fine for you as uni life approach  a closure. To my other friends which I fail to mention, you're not forgotten for you're in my heart. Hope people are treating you nice and fair and hope you will be happy. Hope work is not taking the toil out of you.

On a side note, won't you agree with me that regardless how hectic a schedule is, a simple message makes your day? At least that's the case for me. It's just that simple. 

Week one in a foreign land...

It's been A week since I have been away from Singapore, the place where I called home and will only revisit in ten months' time. There have been plenty of tears accompanied with the bitter cold which this new place brings, both literally and not.

Warning, this may be a picture heavy post.

Day 0

It was horrid. The sending off at the airport made me cry buckets. Seeing my mum cry was such a heartache. As I hugged each of my friend goodbye, a part of me just want to stay on and not go through the gates. Thank you all who came by and those who send me well wishes through smes. I am sorry for not replying. The entire event was such a rush.

Must show you this meaningful memoirs which my dear Hildya and Poh Yian gave me. Thank you girls it must have been a tough ride. And, of course, thank you to the creator of the little black photo album by which contains fond memories. Seeing it brings more tears to my eyes. Am so very touched. Imagine me sitting by the window seat, looking into my bag and tearing, it was a tad embarassing.To make things worse, the turbulence on the plane made me sick. And sitting by the window seat did not make things easier when I had a minor disagreement with my digestive system. I had a rough time cleaning up my mess and fell asleep after I took some pills. Thus just one picture aboard the aircraft. Note to self, sit by the aisle in future when travelling alone.

Day 1

Upon arrival, I was greeted by long queues at the immigration. When I have finally clear the custom, I thought everything will go on smoothly from here. But, no, I was wrong. Silly me did not bring the documents to show the chauffeur. Thankfully, the guy was helpful enough to assist me to sort it out with the headquarters. He was real sweet too as he helped me bring my humogous luggage to the door of my house.

The empty house greeted me. I left my luggages and shortly after I headed out to explore the neighbourhood a little. Found a petrol kiosk with a 7/11 and a telco office which immediately

remind me to get a prepaid card. Afterwhich, I took a hot shower and slept like a child till the evening. I met Ben and friend Yim. They brought me to places around the city. Soon, I am aware of the places with good dumplings, dim sum, chicken, cheap groceries, etc etc. Somehow, I cannot escape good food.

Me after a nap and freshening up.

The first night was terrible. Shall not talk about that.

Anyway I have decided to let the photos do the talking. So, sit back and enjoy the picturesque log..

Day 2: Macdonalds for lunch near my school

Day 3: Le Tian is home-d! We're on the way to...

... Suzuki Night Market @ Queen Victoria Market ie. only available during summer on Wednesday nights (The substitute for Mambo)

... Yummy-licious grilled fish & huge succulent and juciy scallops!

Various kind of patties for the burgers. Are you game?

Introducing... Italian seafood with rice, some Italian potato dish (similar to carrot cake), honey dumplings with chocolate syrup & seasame seeds & lastly, the ROO burger! We were too hungry and end up with too much food. But the food was good. The honey dumplings reminded me so much of our deep fried hum-chee-peng, just that now it's with ice-cream and chocolate syrup.

Day 4: The divine experience of tasting the famous KOKO Black. Met up with Tavis and friend Lawrence. They laughed at me for being so touristy =( coz I was snapping pictures of almost everything.

Day 6: Max Brenner's brought me back to life after a whole morning of inspection for houses (P.S: I will do a comparison of the two popular chocolate spots at a later date.)

Day 7: St Kilda's beach. That was a blazing hot Sunday. Was suppose to explore the place but the merciless Sun kept me sitted under the shelter and I refused to barge. Met up with Ling, Dion and Tavis.

To date, I have inspected more than 10 houses, applied for 5, been rejected by 3 and searching the website for more suitable choices but to no avail. Wish me luck peeps! School is starting 26th Feb, Tues. I managed to sort out my timetable and get the modules I want (which includes an internship). Being so, I only have 3 examinable modules thus a 3-day week wee! Will apply for a work permit in time to come and start looking for jobs once I'm more settled. So all is well for now other than the fact that I am home-less.

Oh, did I mention I tried experimenting in the kitchen? Proud to say, the food is turning out edible and surprisingly pretty yummy under the supervision of Master Chef Lee Le Tian. More pictures and updates at a later time. Please make do for now and stay tune for more.

Meanwhile, I am missing you... miss me too okie?