It's been a week since the fateful incident.

I can still remember the still body laying in the room. His eyes tightly shut regardless the loud wails and sobs from his loved ones. My hands touching the clammy face of my er jiu jiu.

The one final touch.

The passing of my uncle

Today is 17th March 2010. The lunar calendar reads 2nd February 2010, which also happens to be my grandfather's death anniversary.

My uncle, aged 49, collapsed on the basketball court around 1840 and never woke up from the deep slumber. He was rushed to the hospital at 1915. Despite continuous efforts to resuscitate him, he did not stirr at all.

My Er Jiu Jiu left, just like that. An ernest and responsible father of four loving children, aged 28, 26, 19 and 16. With a dutiful wife who takes good care of the family.

I will never look at the basketball court the same ever again..

Goodbye my dearest uncle. I wish you well and may you be blessed with happiness in your after-life.

Ouch

I like to play with fire and walk on the roads.

Theory proven right, again and again.

Do people listen anymore?

Well i don't that's for sure.

One fine example is I never seem to be able to remember passing remarks. Say this afternoon, my colleague packed lunch and I asked him what did he get. He answered. Shortly after, say ten minutes, I asked him again. Crap, isn't my memory is failing me? Or was I just engaging in selectively listening? Hear the important stuff but leave out all the others. This is bad, isn't it?

Actually, I noticed everyone does this too. These days, friends hardly have time for you anymore. Everyone is occupied with work, life and the likes. When work piles up, one tend to forget about everything else. Again, I am guilty as charge.

I miss the school days, when life is more carefree and everyone had more time and were happier. Those were the days definitely, wasn't it?

miff-ed

am feeling quite alot of that recently. would gladly appreciate if one have the courtesy to actually inform beforehand or revert back diligently on matters at hand. i know, not everyone has the luxury of doing so and sometimes work/life may be so overwhelming that there's no room for breather. but still... there is no rhyme or reasons that friends should be taken for granted for.

perhaps, i have too much time on hand to be bothered by such stuff. i need more challenges... and maybe i ought to inject more excitement into my life. i am becoming boring! 'yawns'

it's been so long... it's the mid year again. yeah christmas is approaching soon!

and guess, what i have unknowingly been working for the past 3 months (almost? started on mar 27) with a bank.. unbelievable but it's true! pay-wise.. it's terrible! hate the recession... argh!! spoilt my plans... dashed my dreams and clipped my wings from flying boooohooooo!!!

actually, i don't really know what i want too.. but at least i know i want a job that is fulfilling, that makes me learn more and at least is related to what i study.. tough bet yea?

okie.. i'm just feeling crappy! it's the sundays again... shoooo away the monday blues please someone!!! =(

overwhelmed

Back in Singapore for almost a month now. At first, I felt really foreign to this place I once called home. Now, it seems to feel a little better. At present, I am feeling rather lost. I wish I know what I'm looking for in every aspects of life. However, how many people really do know what they want in life? If one really do know, would it be considered living life or would it be more like fulfilling the duties in life? We'll never know.. and we can only attempt to build the path ahead of us and overcome any hurdles along the way.


My sentiments ever since I set foot on this little red dot:
When I first came back, I was overwhelmed by the heat & humidity which the sunny island emits. As I walked down Orchard Rd, I was frightened by the amount of human crowd there was trudging down the same street as I did. After driving several times around the island, I was disgusted by the inconsideration and un-graciousness of road users these days. And now, I am bothered by the fact that time passes so quickly. Is it me or is it time in Singapore goes by a few minutes faster than when I was overseas?


Today, I went to Ikea coz I felt that it was the only place where I can have plenty of space around me as I walked through the viewing gallery. It was a place which I have room for myself both physically and mentally. Or so I thought. However, a sense of weariness washed over me. I felt jaded and mentally worn out. I think it's because Mr Brain up there have been put to rest over the one year and now when it's time to use it, the system refused to ignite its engine. Or in plain english, I think I'm becoming more lazy these days.

So I must instill this idiom in me: The sky is the limit!

Don't give up Yvonne Koh!! Just got to keep trying! And put the smile on your face! When one door closes, there is always another one that opens for you!

Overdue!

Oops, this post should have been up since ages ago! But you know once the exams ended, it was just all play and thus yours truly had little motivation to sit still and update my blog.

But anyway, it's been exactly one month since my last paper and results are out too! I haveeeeeeee... one HD, one D and two Cs. 'clap, clap,clap' The papers which I think I would excel in turn out to disappoint me and those which I thought I won't do so well turn out rather amazing =)

I shall not bore you with too much of the passé happenings. I just came back from Gold Coast on Thursday night. This weekend have been filled with catching up sessions with the friends and partying. My parents are coming on Tuesday. Exciteeeeeeedddd to see them, family and all.. then it's touring Victoria for almost a week, graduation on 18th Dec then it's home sweet home from there. ETA in Singapore would be 20th Dec? Silly me mistook my return flight for the 19th and informed parents to book ticket for then. To find out that, my own ticket was booked for 20th. So silly!

Anyway, there's so many things that I want... Can I have Santa to be my personal gift concierge this year??? Oh, and did I mention, my dearest Olympus camera has been laid to rest on the faithful day of 4th Dec 2008. It was pronounced dead at estimated time 12.48pm. Due cause of death was the unfortunate collaboration of mechanics and liquid. (The two of them just don't seem to get along all too well and resulted in a brutely fight which left one dead)

"My dearest Olympus IR500, you have served me well for the past 4 years. Thank you for bringing me all the fun, joy and laughter all these while! You have been a great companion. It was my negligence that you have to leave me so soon. I am deelpy sorry and saddened by your departure. However, I would still like to wish you all the best and perhaps one day you will be revived & returned back to my hands. "

-Fondly remembered by yours truly

'Turkey'

Today was a morning paper. I was feeling rather sleepy on my way to the examination hall -_- I think i fared well for the paper today. Bless me people. Next up, international marketing. The final one and adios exams!

Now it's time to fry my poor, overworked brains again.My colourful, multi-zip pencil case which accompanied faithfully through my tertiary years

P/S: the shops are calling out to me. liberation (or slavery) awaits me muahhahahahahha!

A peekture from my rendezvous halloween nightout.. hellooooooo nurse!

double 'bliss' (hopefully)

Second paper today. Well well, was stressing out in the morning coz there was so much to memorize and somehow my brain just refused to cooperate.

One o'clock came and I left the house. Wishing time would faster pass and I can 'perform' my verbal regurgitation asap and empty whatever has been up there for the past 2-3 days. Happily entered the examination as two thirty came. To my horror, the brilliant me left my wallet at home and leaving myself identity-less =( Told myself, don't worry, just tell the invigilator, i'm sure they know what to do. So I did just that and comfortably sat myself down.

Lay out my pens nicely, place my water bottle on the table, took off my watch, jacket, scarf, whatnots... then started staring into space and hopefully time would come by faster so that the paper will begin soon.

Just then, this guy came by and asked if I was in the wrong seat. And I was quite sure I was at G558. The invigilator mentioned that we could check the seating plan at the back. I quickly took out my phone where I record my seat number. Only then did I realized 'oops, i was at the wrong seat.. mine was G553.' The embarassed me quickly gathered my stuff and scrambled to the back of the row. What a frantic beginning!

Soon 1430 came and we were given reading time. The examination was pretty all right. Quite similar to the past year papers except for some 'surprises'. All in all, it was fine and I think I did nailed it =) Two economics paper down.. feeling good about the both of it and I think my love for economics has caught me unaware coz I think i'm gonna miss doing it.

Next two.. marketing papers, 6th and 7th Nov. Ahhh so dead so dead!!!

P.S: Left examination hall early so didn't get a chance to take pictures of my desk.. so here's some pictures of my study 'environment'

My 'wonder' pens.. Supplements to keep the brain working well.. Biscuits and Sweets.. And my lovely friends who are constanly on my mind and to keep me accompany..My view from the window overlooking an overgrown garden.. What a 'beautiful sight'!A sign which I saw on the way home. Almost all the indecency you can find in two phrases. Try reversing the order and it will become 'Cock-Ram-Hooker'? Interesting!